"I hate every last inch of myself. You don’t know what it’s like to hate this much and this purely. This is the real thing. This is the fire burning hate that turns your whole world black."
"My biggest accomplishment is not killing myself the many times I wanted to."
"Breathe. You’re going to be okay. Breathe and remember that you’ve been in this place before. You’ve been this uncomfortable and anxious and scared, and you’ve survived. Breathe and know that you can survive this too. These feelings can’t break you. They’re painful and debilitating, but you can sit with them and eventually, they will pass
. Maybe not immediately, but sometime soon, they are going to fade and when they do, you’ll look back at this moment and laugh for having doubted your resilience. I know it feels unbearable right now, but keep breathing, again and again. This will pass. I promise it will pass."
and I swear it sounded like
the doorbell of you coming home
after a long day at work."